Making a List

Spending the day inside staring at the computer with TweetDeck running in the background is no substitute for a day out gazing at the landscape, but with one of my deck’s columns devoted to “enviro” it’s possible to maintain some connection with what’s going on out there.

Except that following threads in that category rarely brings me to a better place. (Maybe I just need to follow more uplifting folks, although those posting links to well-executed environmental literature seem to elude me.) Instead, in this season of consumption I’m led to question my integrity, or at least dedication, in the matter of sustainable living.

Am I doing enough? And for the right reasons?

The self-accounting goes something like this: One vehicle, not two. A townhome, not a house. Repeated spasms of downsizing, first to move, then to move again, then to fit into a space that is destined—by personal commitment, if not exhaustion—to be a “permanent” one. Less food and even less bad food. Gargling with hydrogen peroxide and cleaning with baking soda.

I’d like to feel good about all this as I coast down Beaver Street on my 10-year-old Raleigh or squeeze into a seat on the Mountain Line bus, Route 2, hoping to beat the campus-bound Mountain Link to the transfer stop. I’d like to feel as if these are concessions and sacrifices made for a high moral purpose.

But my mind, socialized in the Boomer generation and irradiated with consumerism, commercialization, and competition, won’t allow it without a fight.

This is my condition, that flinching inner voice says, because something has gone awry. Two master’s degrees and three (four? five?) careers and a few essays published here and there. And now living paycheck to paycheck, savings rate 0 percent. Really? This isn’t about sacrificing. It’s about mediocrity. No, failure.

But, my rational self tries to counter, this is about choices. I’m living humbly and purposefully in a place that speaks to my soul instead of my ambition. I car camp with my wife and son, the elk and coyotes serenading us at midnight. We walk and bike on urban trails. Our commitment to family—stay-at-home mom, 8-to-5 dad—invokes our commitment to sustainability and simplicity.

Maybe, I hold out, this is a deliberate life?

This current state, simple and modest, with little that is discretionary and disposable, may be more than just the accident of falling off the hamster wheel, or of never having gotten a good grip in the first place. Perhaps, after enough time, the underlying principles and traits that have motivated a lifetime of choices—even the inexplicable ones—begin to take shape as a lifestyle. Even if it took me five decades. And if all generally seems right, then it’s about time to stop carrying around my ready apology for how I live.

One less item on the “unnecessary” list.

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Pushcart Nominations

We submitted these nominations at the end of November, but it’s not until now that we’ve announced them publicly. We’re pleased to say that we’ve sent in nominations for this year’s Pushcart Prize for the following writers:

  • David Blomenberg, for “Unlikely Resolutions” from Issue Ten
  • John Paul Calavitta, for “A Mountain with No (Geographic) Will To Be There” from Issue Twelve
  • B. J. Hollars, for “Dispatches from a Tornado: March 21, 1932” from Issue Twelve
  • Tammy Ho Lai-Ming, for “Peak District” from Issue Twelve
  • Timothy Gray, for “wilderness wish” from Issue Twelve
  • D. C. Lynn, for “Mother Road Vistas” from Issue Eleven

We send our congratulations to these writers, and our many, many thanks to all those who have entrusted their work to us in the past year.

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Roads to Nowhere

In Pondicherry where I live they say that even if one were to trip and fall one would fall full length only at the feet of some deity or other! There are ever so many temples and places of worship and sanctity in these parts that our developing townships and the planners of the powers that be find it so very difficult to widen and modify the roads—they have to deal with temple structures sometimes plump in the middle of the motorways. However, being caught in the roads to development our state government finds itself forced to tear down and modify old places of worship, sometimes (or most often) much to the chagrin of the devout. Roads in these parts of the world have evolved through from the older footpaths and cart tracks of an earlier era—they are not the well-planned off-springs of a city designed for the present days. In those days perhaps these pathways necessarily would have winded through the sanctified points in the compass of a simpler forms of living. The wayfarer would have desired to touch upon these significant places, rest or even dwell beside the same. Of course religion was the mainstay as with most cultures. And now all of a sudden when we have progressed ever so fast on transport and technology the temple structures have suddenly become block-holes to traffic. They have even become superfluous, very much like our older generation that finds little space in the fast track culture of youngistan!

In the elite University campus where I live there are many trees that ebb and flow with tides of the monsoons. Some of the greenery in these parts still can boast of long term heredity as being indigenous to the semi-dry east coast tropics by the Bay of Bengal. Our high tension electricity lines are drawn for the most above and across these tree clumps that when the tropical storms rage and drive through them the charge could easily be outraged and we have to suffer some long dark nights without power. I have often heard people otherwise quite knowledgeable about many things curse the trees and even opining that they ought to tear down the trees that cause so many problems! Perhaps there is little difference between these electrical highways and the motorways of our developing cities. I am often left wondering why instead of drawing these lines over the green belt we don’t invest a little more and draw them through the other clearer parts of our campus. These are the exigencies of modern living so very much like the highways and byways of traffic that becomes our urban living.

Roads are the nerves of our modern day civilization and one cannot even imagine a country without roads. In fact we could say that our essential societal structure is founded on and depends on the breaking of new wood. Does it by extension become the arch writing that Derrida talks about? In the deep dark woods of the early dawn of human culture when the first homo erectus stood up and walked through and laid the first ever track there was no sense of divide and separation but one only of a sense of direction of the left and the right, the front and the back. Of course as life evolved there was a sequential trail of smell and sense that made out for mental maps and directions as well. Paths and roads made ways for communities and social groups to keep up and cohere. All roads lead back to where one started from. Traveller, says and Arabian proverb, there are no paths! Paths are made by walking.

As I traverse slowly on this mud track through the grass carefully avoiding the rain filled ditches, I hear the harsh notes of the black drongo and the sweet melodious fruity call of the golden oriole. At the edge of the tree line I come across newly felled trees and raked up soil. The red earth is breathing still. All trees and bushes are fated to make way for the growing human needs. All birds and insects like all mammals and reptiles have to stand aside to let the juggernaut of the human machine to slide by. Some are lucky enough to adapt to and be adopted by new habitats. Some are not so lucky, resist and fall. The maps of human evolution are constantly altered and the roads run calmly on and on. Like these red ants that scurry along in silent lines and like the unseen energy that flows through the high tension wires we move, trying to find new and newer paths.

My times are definitely changing. In my boyhood to behold a casual tourist was a cause for celebration. All of us brats would perhaps run after the unfortunate guy and stand around and simply stare. If they are from another land and in another costume we would gape open mouthed not knowing the finer aspects of civilization that staring is such a bad habit! We took our way of life and our nineteen streets so very much for granted that our world closed around them. All beings from beyond were aliens and strange. Nowadays tourism itself is considered as a culture of its own—we speak so proudly about tourism in terms of cultural history and the economics of development. Tourists are an inevitable contingent of every developing nation. The fanciest term these days is eco tourism. We cater to the professed lover of nature—the eco tourist—who roams the country and gapes upon “nature and human nature” with the same benign expression of the children our old times. Eco tourism opens up new inroads into the wild and the seemingly untouched. The eco tourist is invited into the virgin forest to trace the tracks of peaceful and healthy living! Those silent mountains and deep green forests that I have secretly enjoyed in my own mighty solitude have now become the common property of many prying touristy eyes! How could they enjoy the profundity of wilderness if they lay broader and broader roads? This is so very much in the spirit of the cartoon depicting the city tourister asking eagerly of the tourist guide while they settle for the night in their camping site: where do I plug in my electric blanket?

What is wild? Is it something that stands counter to the domesticated and the friendly? Is wild the other side of our cultural habitat? Is it where our children should not trek lest they be swallowed into the unknown? Is it where the savages lurk who do not belong to our known territories? Is it the periphery of our centres? The end of our roads? Can we ever know it for what it is?

Robert Frost has a poem that presents a dark wood from within which a thrush song beckons the passer- by to come in. Is it a welcome song or a sign of something sinister that lurks beyond the known and tested? But then, paths are made by walking and walking leads us to the unknown. It leads us to new signs of front and back and left and right. In the wild our world of relatives and the known collapse—we are left to face the presence of the unknown. The pathless woods are virgin deeps. And to sense the unknown we need a path. The paradox becomes more complex as we reach into spiritual truths. In the wild we return to reason and faith, noted the American philosopher Emerson. The Victorian poet Robert Browning writes: Ah that man’s reach should exceed his grasp/ or what’s a heaven for? To reach into the unknown we need to tame it and know it when it simply ceases to be what it was!

The worm glides majestically over the thorns; the rose blooms silently on the left and right of the winding path. The mist rises slowly and I can see right up to the bend in the horizon. Even the huge electrical grids with their high-rise spires and their welter of high-tension wires have never appeared so beautiful. Did I stray far from my well-worn path? Or have I left all paths and taken that road to nowhere?

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Case Study

Ten quiet minutes walking on a dirt and gravel path winding among a stand of pines won’t vanquish the full frontal assault of contemporary life on my soul and sensibilities. But I’ll take it.

For now, I’d rather stitch together those peaceful patches than engage with the fractious world; or more insidiously, engage with the internal, incessant struggle to decipher and rationalize, to painstakingly distill meaning from each day.

This is my vacation from existential hand wringing.

Tests of my nascent resolve arrive frequently, and one in particular induced a wavering that nearly pulled my attention from the lenticular clouds hovering over the San Francisco peaks like the aspirations of an artist’s faraway mind.

The occasion was the outcry of a restive few raised up against a discrete phase of the master plan for campus construction—a phase that called for some tree removal. All of the classic elements presented themselves to me, as a representative of the institution, and fought for ascendancy: duty, loyalty, work ethic, environmental ethic, authenticity. Campus administration called the work revitalization. Others called it degradation. My young son called it “the tree fuss.”

At another stage of my life, this is the juncture at which I would dispassionately outline and analyze both sides of the argument while tearing myself up inside by pitting conscience against conscientiousness.

But I won’t because I choose not to go down that path.

I’m not looking the other way on this matter; I’m just watching out for myself. And if that means keeping my head in the clouds for a few minutes each day, then I’ll take the respite and return to work. The vacation isn’t over yet.

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Can Our Tools Ever Dismantle Our House?

I once overheard an intense argument regarding the path toward a sustainable human presence on Earth.  Given Cornell professor David Pimentel’s estimation that the world population will likely double in the next fifty years while it can only support about one to two billion people at the American standard of living, just how can humanity thrive?

The first and most obvious solution was that perpetual technological advancement would make continued, luxurious life on the planet possible.  One person contended, most eloquently, that it was in fact technology that had gotten humanity into its current mess, so technology could not be counted on as a means of redemption. (Bringing to my mind Audre Lorde’s famous article, “The Master’s Tools Will Never Dismantle the Master’s House”).   I must admit that I spent years enamored with the person’s position.

And for good reason.  For instance, anthropologists widely agree that prior to the advent of agriculture, adult humans regularly lived into their seventies or eighties.  With agriculture and urbanization came disease and poor diet.  One of the greatest revolutions in history thus cut the human lifespan in half.  The food supplied by the “green revolution” was not really responsible for longer lives.  Rather, the sanitation age managed to bring humanity back to the life expectancy people had  thousands of years ago.  So much time and and so many horrible living conditions had elapsed, all to bring humans to the level of comfort and health they had enoyed before civilization ever began.

Of course, history can never be ignored.  The process of urbanization has been long, but steady.  While humanity may have been better off never starting with this experiment of ours, we have nonetheless embarked on an astounding voyage that has, oftentimes, come at the expense of our environment and our own health.  The human population has already reached six billion, and it will not slow down any time soon.  Earth’s resources will doubtfully ever be as plentiful for human use as they are today.

Given this reality, what are we to do?  Eschewing the need for technology, though poetic, unfortunately feels impossible.  The structure of the planet’s populations could not withstand a harsh return to pre-industrial or even pre-civilization modes of obtaining food and shelter.  Literally billions of people would perish.

I am left with the sense that new technologies–innovations for the betterment of humanity–will be necessary to maintain this march forward, wherever it goes.

And I am all too aware of how optimistic this perspective is.  The deleterious effects of over population and poor manipulation of the landscape can be seen all over the planet.  Today, technology and the global economy insufficiently provide for billions of people.   In fact, the World Health Organization has said over three billion people currently alive are malnourished.  The negative effects of the expansion of the human species are thus already very apparent.

But optimism is my only choice.  In the end, optimism about what the human race has already accomplished, and wonder at what it may some day accomplish, seem the only ways we ever have or ever will make ourselves and our world better.  Perhaps some day we just might figure out how to provide every human with what he or she needs to live a rich, fulfilling, and healthy life, while ensuring the same for posterity.  Such a goal may be lofty–but now that we have been to the moon, split the atom, recorded Abbey Road, and invented the Internet, what should our goals be?

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